Blood and Guts in High School by Kathy Acker

blood and guts in high school
I didn’t want anyone to notice me ‘cause I was blind so I crawled under the splinters

of the bar. The music stopped. A lot of feet passed by. Some of them by accident kicked me.

One kicked me too hard.

“Do you want to fuck me, scumbag?” President Carter said to me.

“I can’t fuck.”

“You’ve got syphilis?”

“I’ve got cancer.”

“Gee.” He put his arms around me and kissed me.

I USED TO BE UNHAPPY

OH YES

I LIVED IN THE CORNER OF A ROOM

THEN YOU CAME ALONG AND FUCKED THE SHIT

OUT OF ME

I WON’T BE UNHAPPY AGAIN

SPRING IS A COCK THAT’S HARD

OH YES

I KNOW YOU’RE A SECRET TERRORIST

‘CAUSE LOVE LEADS TO DEATH

I WON’T EVER BE UNHAPPY AGAIN

THOUGH IT’S BEEN A WEEK SO YOUR LOVE’S

ALMOST OVER

THE WORLD’S ABOUT TO EXPLODE

TERRORISTS NEED NO MORE COVER

OH YES LOVE LEADS TO DEATH

OH YES

I couldn’t hear any of that political music shit I just wanted to kiss

the guy again and again. The music made it so you couldn’t hear the words

and the music itself was so loud music couldn’t be heard

you weren’t hearing

this is beyond hearing

you is just vibrations so there’s no difference between self and music.